Monday, August 4, 2014

An important job

I did it!  Whew!  I didn't die. I didn't combust. I didn't cry all day. I didn't explode. Yes. I made it. 

I went back to work today. 

I have heard such horror stories, "you'll cry all day!"  "It's the hardest day of your life!"  

It was hard. I didn't cry.  I also didn't eat a tub of ice cream. High five self!  

But it was hard. 

All week I have been pumping myself up for success. Glass half full, right?   I can do this!!  I can leave my baby sweetheart to go to work.  However, I got sick with my vertigo on Wednesday and I was down for the count all weekend. In the house. Depressing.  Then my attitude changed. I felt overwhelmed, it was all too much. It was all in front of me, just a massive pile of "I can't do it."  Plus WATER CRISIS was not helping the situation.  That scared the crap out of me. 

It's also not helping that I still look sorta pregnant. Not cute round belly pregnant but rather butt in the front and butt in the back pregnant.  Like spare tire pregnant. Like need to do sit-ups pregnant. The kicker is that I HAVE BEEN!  Muther trucker I have been. 2 solid months of serious diet and Jillian Michaels shred and I don't have a perfect beach body?  Horseshit. 

But guess what?

I still did it. 

Thank you to everyone that called, texted, emailed, sent flowers, to my amazing mom who watched the peepster while I launched back into adult land, and to my DT who has always believed in me. I couldn't have done it without your help. 

Now leave me be, I have an important job to do:





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