Ok - so here we are. 39 weeks and 3 days. Guess what - This baby is scheduled to arrive 5/15/14. That's right. Officially....
We will meet this baby on Thursday. Yes. In JUST TWO DAYS.
What does the doc say?
On Thursday doc said I was still not dilated and only thinning out slightly. She doesn't think I am going to progress on my own. Then she sent me to get a growth ultrasound so we could get an idea of what hairy Tank measures. 9.7lbs. Yes - almost a 10 lb. baby! The ultrasound tech was so nice - she thought it was cute that the baby had so much hair (hence Hairy) and said the head and belly were really big... obviously. She remembered me from my 20 week ultrasound - she said because I had memorable hair and personality. I hope in a good way! After that, we went back to meet with the doc. She said because of the baby size, my body not advancing and also just the size/shape of my body, we would schedule a C section. She did not think inducing labor would benefit me or the baby since pushing would be futile and we would wind up with a C section anyway.
How do you feel about all this?
This is the big question everyone asks me. The doc asked me too. To sum up, I feel RELIEVED. I trust my doctor and she does this every day. She KNOWS what is best so I am putting my faith in her and God and just know that it will all be ok. Am I disappointed that I am not going to push or have a vaginal delivery? Not at this point! This is precisely why I didn't have a "Birth Plan" because I figured it would all change anyway. I just want what is best for baby and for me really. However, there are a lot of other emotions that go along with this. All at once, I feel relieved, nervous, anxious, happy, excited, terrified, loved and curious. Yes, all.at.once. All day.
Are you going crazy?
It depends on what you mean by crazy. My doctor cleared me to take my leave starting on Monday which was tremendously helpful. Originally I thought I was being scheduled on Monday or Tuesday so when I went into work on Friday, I told my boss, got all the HR paperwork done and then the office called and said Thursday. I just couldn't go back to work after that. Too much stress and at this point, I am super huge and need to relax. I love what I do, but it is a fast-paced and often stressful job so doc cleared me a few days early. I really wanted to work until the day I delivered, but I am not going to beat myself up about that. I had been having low blood sugar issues all last week and it's hard to recover from that while at work. 3 days to rest and stock up on last minute things? Totally worth it.
What have you been doing?
Going crazy. LOL. I cannot believe how tired I have been. Maybe because I am finally letting myself relax. Every day since I have been off work, I have taken 3 naps a day. It's amazing. I just am able to fall asleep a few times a day for 30 ish minutes and I feel better and rested. I am sleeping well at night (with the AC CRANKED UP! - sorry honey) and am doing my walking and yoga. Getting last minute items and getting the house totally spotless. I cannot thank my friends and family enough who have called and texted to give me great last minute advice on what to expect for C section and delivery. It's been really helpful and helping me be less anxious.
Are you ready?
As ready as I will ever be!
Wish us luck - Thursday at 10am.