Sunday, April 28, 2013

Vertigo

Vertigo.  You know what it is.  You may have experienced it or know someone that has felt it.  You avoid the Raptor at Cedar Point because of it.  You know that hangovers will give it to you.  You have heard that U2 song.  But today, and for the last 4 days, I have it.

I hate it.

Vertigo is a terrible sickness because you are not exactly sick.  Not really.  You are not contagious.  No cough, no sneezing, no bleeding.  There is no OTC medicines that can help.  You just have to wait for it to pass.  In my case anyway.  Sometimes I have to wait days.  And in those days I miss things.   I miss my cousin's wedding shower, my cousin's play, my first big weekend at work, hundreds of emails, phone calls, etc...  You miss life.

When you don't have it, you sort of live in fear of it.  What happens if it strikes when I'm on vacation?  What happens the week before my sister's wedding?  What happens if, if, if, if?

I hate it.

It's not the worst thing in the world.  There are worse, that's true.  One one hand, I just relax and watch tv and sleep.   Thank GOD for being able to sleep.  I have time off to - well.  Do nothing.  Because I can't do anything.  I can't clean, cook, organize, do laundry, vacuum, or do anyone household chores.  Forget driving.  It all makes me dizzy and nauseous beyond belief.  My favorite movies have too much action/movement and that makes me sick.  Reading?  Sick.  Computer?  Limited time only. 

I hate it.

So I have all this time on my hands and can't do anything with it but suffer with dizziness and my thoughts.   Just a blog to pass the time.  Sorry if it's depressing.  Don't worry, I've been living on a steady diet of ice cream.  Next blog will be about needing to lose weight I'm sure.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Ugh. Feel better buddy.
~merp