Ok, confession....I have not been to weigh in in several weeks. I'm a bad person.
BUT! I have a scale at home and I am doing fine...not losing but maintaining and I'm ok with that for now. My ultimate goal is to lose 15 more lbs and I know I can do it. Not before the wedding but I know I can do it.
My goal was to lose 40 lbs for my wedding and I did it....I can't believe I actually did it. It is such an incredible feeling to set a goal that seems almost impossible and to truly accomplish it. The hard part is (well, the hard part was losing all this weight!), the hard part is to keep going. You can't just rest on your laurels and and eat ice cream every day because you "accomplished your goal."
Unfortunately, or fortunately, weight loss is a healthy lifestyle and is all about good choices and living a social life (or me anyway). It is constant effort and progress checks. There are new goals now. It's not like when you graduate, get a diploma and no one can ever take it away from you. It's a slippery slope and one donut can lead to an entire box, and a box can lead to movie popcorn that can lead to 5 lbs up, which goes to 10, then guess what?
I sometimes dream that I have gained all my weight back after I have a little treat. This is crazy behavior, I understand that. I get nervous when I go out of town --- what If I lose control and can't get back on track? Crazy.
I think this is a fear or reality of so many of us that struggle with our weight. We don't want to gain it back and we are afraid of food, but we love it still. We want to stay away from certain types of food but we have to eat to live. It's all about finding the balance, blah blah blah, but for some of us, it is difficult, all the time. Every party, every weekend, every event. There are always going to be challenges. It's just about what is the most worth it. Feeling healthy and fit and enjoying fitting into your clothes? Or food (and beer!)? Balance. Must work on the balance.